At a faith clinic a few months ago we studied the book of James chapter 2, which talked about Loving your neighbor as thyself. Mommy B. further shared that if we see a brother or a sister destitute, we should have the heart of compassion to help the person. Then she said that in a night vision God showed her a lady asking a sister in the ministry (who was present at that meeting that day) for help and the sister turned her back. Everyone, including myself cried out “Oh my goodness…” In my spirit I was even saying how could someone do that –that is very wicked and just as said that something was convicting me that it was me, and I said to myself—“…but I give, it can’t be me.” And so….I dismissed it. 

 

A week and half went by and after the Sunday meeting Mommy B. said she wanted to see me. I was not sure what it was about, but I knew she probably had a revelation about me—not imagining that it would be the revelation that she shared that day. I said “that was me?; I was the sister??? Saliva dried in my tongue. I told her that there was a thought that it might be me, but the thought was quickly dismissed. I was heavily grieved in my spirit, feeling so low about myself. I was trying to even figure out who the sister was so that I could immediately offer my assistance (assuming it was a financial need). After some description by mommy B. of the sister, I still did not know who it was, and really do not know up till now who it was.

 

Over the next several weeks, the revelation did not leave my thought. I repeatedly pleaded for mercy and made conscious effort to tend to anyone in need. However, I was still bothered in my spirit and so I discussed it with one of my brothers whom I know may be able to help me understand the revelation in depth.

 

He told me that it may not be a financial need. He said that it could be 1.) a skill or a talent that I have that someone or some people could benefit from which I have not used. 2.) He also said that it may be my time—that someone/people need my time and I am preoccupied doing other things. At that point, I felt: “now that’s one area I know I need a lot of help in.” It’s not that I am that busy, but I noticed many times I don’t like to be bothered. There are many times I have the opportunity to give a word and I just postpone doing it or I end up not saying at all. Then for the next week or two after I spoke to my brother, all I kept on hearing was in the book of Proverbs 3: 27 “Withhold not good from them to whom it is due, when it is in the power of thine hand to do it. The verse 28 of that chapter says: say not unto thy neighbor, go, and come again, and tomorrow I will give; when thou hast it by thee. I really understand the message.

 

Though I have improved a little bit in this area, I still need to do much better—because I find myself either focusing sometimes on my own issues (which I cannot solve anyway) and I also need to be very careful how I think. Almost everything boils down to selfishness on my part. I will continue to renounce this out of my life and ask God to teach me how to apply my heart unto wisdom. I have learned that: LOVE REALLY DOES GO THE EXTRA MILE!